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One of the biggest problems about recovery is the inconsistency of it.
Some days, you are a superhero. You eat all of your meals, and still find beauty in the fullness of your stomach. However, the not-so-wonderful days are the deterrent. You wake up, and cannot find a thing appealing about yourself. When beauty is no longer the goal—you just want to not hate yourself.
Then, you find yourself wishing you knew you were skinny when you were skinny. You hate that wish. It is the creepy uncle that no one likes who sits in the corner and stares at everyone at Thanksgiving. But you cannot help but think it.
You were not skinny, you were dying. You were trying to be invisible; you were trying to shrink away from life. It got so severe that you just stopped functioning, didn’t you?
You may not have known you were skinny,
but you knew you were dying.
Things That Give Me Anxiety.
- being late
- things i said five minutes ago
- things i said five years ago
- people touching me
- being around a ton of people
- being yelled at
- wondering if people are talking about me
- every action i do
- and just about everything else
Got up super early because I couldn’t sleep all that well and decided to go ahead and get ready for work.
I made coffee and ate a slice of whole wheat toast with two egg whites.
I listening to Daughter and Lana Del Rae on my way to work.
I ate a sandwich, yogurt, protein bar, and a kiwi and was super full.
I worked eight to four and sped the whole way home because I was so tired and just wanted to go to sleep.
But what did I do when I got home? I did yoga and stretched as am used to having dance classes but the studio is closed for spring break.
I ate dinner with my mom and watched a new show that I think was called “Believe” and it was really good.
I took my meds and am hoping I might get some sleep.